nothing fits

I have a closet full of clothes that do not fit. There is no plan to make them fit. I don’t care much about fashion, so it is not the actual items that bother me, but the abundance of clothes that I cannot use. I have several pairs of stretchy black leggings that I have washed every week for a year. I’m amazed that these leggings - approximately $15 a pair - have held up this long.

I can squeeze myself in some shirts. I eventually had to buy bigger underwear. I never have enough bras that fit. I am physically uncomfortable in my clothes more days than not.

I do not want to make any effort to lose weight because that has made my life so much harder in the past. Those efforts put my at such intense odds with myself. It is hard though because there are so many comments around me and so many advertisements whenever I try to zone out and watch television.